Pissy. Extremely pissy. HMPF.
Like seriously.

So, I shall just rant here. AGAIN. As usual. (Cheryl is pretty predictable actually. NYAHAHA)

1) I look older nao. LIKE people bloody think I'm at LEAST 19. WTFBBQXZXZXZXZ.
And you know why?! Cause I'm dark nao. And my hair colour goes under the '101 ways to chao lao'. Thanks ah.

2) School is starting. T.T

3) WHY THE !@#@$ AM I ALWAYS POSTED AT KOVAN?! I HATE KOVAN. SO BLOODY BORING.

4) I have yet to watch my Nightmare on Elm Street. >:(

Grow up boy.

hello. I'm so tired I'm gonna die. T.T
My dream of rotting at home for at least 2 days during the hols is dashed. So busy I'm gonna die too. In other words, I'm gonna die anyway. HAHA.

K random. I'm just posting this so that maybe in lets say... 1 years's time I'll read this and laugh at how lousy my time management skills are. nyahaha.

Hmm. Okay another random most probably really stupid thing I've been thinking about for the past...5 mins.

Lets see. I think the main difference between kids and us (other than physical differences) is that, adolescents/adults/whatever don't ever forgive anybody. ( not that easily at least )

Like for example, when you're a kid right and your friend snatches your lego bricks away from you, at the most you would like snatch your lego bricks back, say 'I DON'T FRIEND YOU ANYMORE! *gives angry pouty face.' and start throwing lego bricks at your friend so that you can make him/her cry. (And, I am leaving out the possibility of crying and throwing a tantrum.)
After the whole saga thing where you don't talk to your friend for like maybe a day, the next day you're friends again.

Now lets just change the whole scenario shall we?

Hmm. Lets say your friend says some really weird shit about you behind your back (that everybody's gonna forget in a matter of days) and you found out. Chances are, you're gonna hate/dislike your friend for like maybe the few months/years/forever. But, being superficial, you're prolly gonna pretend to be friends with that person and bitch about them behind their back.

HMM. WHY IS THAT SO?

P/S All the examples i give are based on...on random stuff and personal experiences. HAHA. So, its okay if it doesn't make sense.

You, make me laugh. Not everything revolves around you.
But oh well, thanks for making a fool out of yourself. LOL. You're EXACTLY like her, its so funny. HAHAHAHA! Made my day btw.

I think i'm not made to be angry. Two reasons.

1) My anger does not last THAT long.

2) Just before I say something really like...idk...when I'm pissed, my head always like spins for a moment. As if its a warning that i might regret saying it. HAHA. Seriously.

k. i shall not get angry for no reason.

I shall electrocute your ballz. You, disappoint me.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M BLOGGING AGAIN. I think. ._.

Okay, my wisdom's tooth growing. I think.

Which means im getting wiser. MWAAHAHAHA! K whatever.

Oh, i miss you. DIE. T.T

Why is that when we're young we wanna grow up so quickly? And when we get older, we don't want to stay young?

Like when i was 5 or something, i used to tell me my mum. ' I want to be an adult! Cause adult means no need to study then everyday can wear home clothes. '
And my mum would go like, ' HAHAHAHA! You want go to work for what! Study better. '

And, when I got older, maybe like around 14-16 (?) I told someone (i forgot who) that i don't want to grow up. I mean like, why would you wanna grow up Being an adult means you have to make your own decisions, deal with ridiculous people like backstabbers all. Look out for yourself and deal with matters of the heart which, imo is completely overrated.

I still think what my mum says is true. Mum : Your ex-boyfriend can never be your friend one la! Ex means got problem ready right! You think become friends then no more problem ah?

People come, people go. HAHA!

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OH! I think I know why I am slightly more nice than the general Singaporean.
I remember that when i was young, my auntie asked me, ' So how? What do you wanna be when you grow up? '

Me : A good person.

And the best part, I tried to be one till....idk when. Till it was too late for me to change i guess. LOL.

Once again, some sucker just proved that it never pays to be nice. *round of applause*
Maybe I should start hating. Like you right? ( if you happen to be reading this, which you never will, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. HAHA! )

But, what do I get from hating hmm? Nothing actually. Other than the fact that everybody will think that im some bitter bitch who cant get over things. Sure, there will definitely be people who will sympathise and go AWWWWW relax okay? Things will get better. How long would that last? A few months at the most. After that, everybody would just think that im a bitter bitch.

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Back to the point. WHY SHOULD I HATE WHEN EVERYBODY WANTS TO STOP HATING RIGHT?

1) Why should i not when some fucking bitch comes and shoves her unappreciated comments (imo only) in my face. When i say immature, i really mean immature. Quote from zh : ' Girl, finish your o levels then come and talk to me okay?' Don't think you got some hokkien vulgar and you actually look kinda cute, you can come kp me. I know more than you do little girl. Don't come act mature. I mean, GO AND FUCKING LOOK AT YOUR EMAIL ADD MAN. Childish ttm.

Btw, didnt anybody teach you how NOT to judge people if you dont know them? Stupid girl.

And you dont know shit about love. CONFIRM. People who know what love is are objective and actually know whats a CONVERSATION. A conversation between you and me means the both of us get to talk. Which means its supposed to be 2-sided. WHICH means that YOU are supposed to be hearing my side of the story. English fail or what. Oh wait. I bet you did.

*Refers to facebook status* ' If i know how to pick this RUBBISH up, I know how to THROW it away.' COME ON LA. I know you want to save the earth all, but seriously. You pick up rubbish of course throw la! Then what? Keep in your bag meh? Stupid girl.

Best is you have to remind everybody to throw the rubbish they PICKED UP. You think everybody like you ah. Pick rubbish up and keep in your bag.

2) Why shouldnt I, when some FUCKER accuses me of things i did not do. And you know all this bullshit about you not being able to forgive me cause i hurt you. Fuck you. It takes 2 hands to clap. You were fine BEFORE i got attached. What right do you have to hate me, when YOU told me you got over me within like 2 days of the breakup? HMM? BET YOU DIDNT SAY THAT TO PEOPLE RIGHT? Even if you did, it will go like, 'oh. I want her to move on ma.'
Well, FUCK YOU AGAIN. I moved on, and here you are bad-mouthing me behind my back and twisting the story in your favour? Play fair my dear. I was the one who respected you in that convo. I could have said so much to mar your perfect little image in front of your darling. I didnt. You know, maybe i should have. Cause you did.

Respect? You dont know shit.

I hope you know how to PICK UP RUBBISH and THROW IT AWAY instead of keeping it in your bag.

OH BTW, your rubbish doesnt mean it is everybody's rubbish. Your rubbish can be someone else's treasure.
Nuff' said. Later the post too long.

3) I can fully express myself when i hate to the fullest potential and when im angry enough. ( K english fail )

Happy only. All angst gone.
P/S I do hope that you actually read this and ask all your girl's ahlian friends come beat me. HAHA! I dont care whether you re offended or not.

Cause, I realise, i was equally stupid to cry for you. Dont think everything's all about you okay?

I am afraid. Of losing faith.

Things I need to learn.

1) To be harsh.
2) How NOT to forgive.

3) Not lie. ( 3.9/4 done)

4) To forgive but not forget.

5) How to express myself.

6) To be less nice.
7) To be less nice.
8) To be less nice.
9) To be less nice.

10) To be less nice.

6-10, virtually impossible. T.T

heartache.